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May. 20th, 2004 | 03:54 pm
mood: nostalgicnostalgic
music: fans

Well, leaving xrubberxduckyx behind.
Starting mortarblock
I've added most of my friends on there anyway, so add me back, bitches.
Go there for updates.

♥ you, ducky.

Ahh, the memories I leave =P

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Tired and happy and irritated and upset and hopeful

May. 18th, 2004 | 08:42 pm
mood: irritatedirritated
music: American Idol...hehe

Alright, today was ok.
B+ on my math interim, and .7 points away from an A-. Awesome.
A, more specifically a 95, in biology. Fuckin awesome.
Well, JV soccer is winding down. Tomorrow's our last game, and then, I get to relax, go home every day, focus on my homework and my friends, and forget about soccer until camp.
Right?
Wrong.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. "Making" varsity, even if for the last few games and possibly regionals, is a big honor.
Unfortunately, I am so sick of soccer I want to scream.
All I want is to be able to ride the bus home in the afternoons and not worry about ANYTHING but exams and what I'm doing this weekend.
Not happening.
I mean, GOD, it's an honor. But let's face it.
Martha and Mawn are 2 good forwards.
They don't need me unless one of them goes down.
So what will I be doing?
Practicing in the afternoons for games I won't even play in.
Ggggggggggggggggggoooooooooodddddddddddddd.

Ouch. Ouch, ouch, ouch. I just got dissed. :\
Shiiitttteeeee. End of the year is gonna suck.
Please call me if you get the chance. I need conversaaaation.
846.4585//401.6155


Oohhhh ps> I made another journal. mortarblock I'm thinking about using it now. New start for a new person.

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Parisa Hearts Yew!

May. 17th, 2004 | 07:28 pm
mood: stressedstressed
music: Elton John//Goodbye Yellow Brick Road

Today was....uneventful?
Anyway, got an A on my interim for Latin.
Good.
Had a semi-deep aka more than 2 seconds in the hall conversation with Steve, which was greatly needed on my part.
Was bombarded with questions about my male interests in drama, which they STILL didn't get the answer to.
Scrimaged Varsity for soccer and actually held them off.
Went to piano and realized all of my pieces suck, and this recital is going to suck.
Caaaaallllll meeeeeeeeeeee.
846.4585/401.6155
Plleeeeeaaaaasssseeeeeeee.

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Contemplations

May. 16th, 2004 | 09:12 am
mood: ecstaticecstatic
music: Invader Zim

So, last night I couldn't sleep, and as I lay awake in my bed upstairs, I started thinking. You know, there are so many people in my life right now that I should be grateful for, and I don't think I always am. I think sometimes, I take certain people forgranted. Of course, not in the sense you might think. I don't use people, but I think I forget how much they mean to me, or even vice versa. There are times when I feel like I don't have anyone.

Well, last night, I realized that if I actually didn't have anyone that I have now, my life would be hell. I don't think I realized how bad it would actually be if I literally had no one. Sure, everyone feels alone at times, but does that justify forgetting how lucky you really are? I don't think so.

Everyone I've ever met has impacted my life in some way or another. Thanks to all of you who have ever bothered talking to me, caring about me, wondering how I'm doing when I'm not there. Thanks to anyone who's ever hurt me. Thanks to everyone who's ever ignored me, who's ever insulted me. You've made me who I am. And I am finally happy with that.

Sure, I talk more about the bad things people have done to me, when in reality, I could write novel after novel about the good things I've been given as well. Good friends whom I know would never intentionally hurt me. Good friends whom I know would never forget about me. Good friends whom I know will never stop making sure I'm happy. Thanks to you all, as well. You've helped me more than you could ever possibly know.

This morning, I woke up to my family going out the door on a walk. As the door shut, I wondered what life would have been like if I had never had a sudden case of insomnia last night. I lay in bed for a moment, trying to envision myself in the future if I had not finally come to terms with my life. I couldn't. So I got out of bed, walked over to my mirror, and looked at myself now, here in the present.

I came downstairs smiling.

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Hahahaha.

May. 15th, 2004 | 07:56 pm
mood: happyhappy but bored
music: modest mouse//the view

In honor of Mean Girls, I have made ((yes, made, as in myself)) this new icon.

Love it. Don't you?

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Aw hell naw! I did not leave Southside for this!

May. 15th, 2004 | 05:57 pm
mood: nerdynerdy
music: Lines from Mean Girls playing over in my head.

Oh.
My.
God.
Mean Girls is the best movie ever.
Marry me, Lindsay Lohan.
AND IT'S PROBABLY BECAUSE I HAVE A BIIIIIG LESSSSSSBIAN CRUSH ON YOU! SUCK ON THAT!
Um, so yeah. I wanna be a plastic.
Let's start cliques at Glass.
Please.
Someone help me.
We'll catagorize everyone, and then we can all get hit by buses.
Wow.
Um so. Call me tonight. Please.
Babysitting and bored to tears.
Dreaming about Lindsay Lohan that weird indian guy.
Weird Indian guy + Parisa = ♥
Lindsay Lohan + Kirin = ♥
Haha. Um...I definitely not joking.
Just kidding.

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Attack Here.

May. 15th, 2004 | 01:21 pm
mood: recumbentrecumbent
music: Scary Movie 3

Went to bed at 11:30 last night.
Woke up at 7:30 this morning.
Played soccer.
Scored.
Came home.
Took a shower.
Going to Mean Girls with Evan, Emily, Joy and Parisa!
Then babysitting.
My dad is watching Scary Movie 3 right now.
Oh, the ironic irony.
Cell it tonight. 401.6155

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Wouldn't it be nice if we were older?

May. 14th, 2004 | 08:49 pm
mood: contentcontent
music: some fucked rock version of a missy elliot song

Well, today was unusually good for a B-day. ((b-day as in block scheduling, not birthday))
For one, Lukanich didn't talk for the two hours practically, starting off great.
Secondly, got a 99 on my math test! Fuck yeah!! ::dances::
Thirdly....oh wait, that's it.
Soccer game. Won 2-0. Saw Kate briefly.
Didn't see the hair up close, but it looked specTACULAR.
Ohhhhh man. Mean Girls tomorrow with some people. Hopefully
God, I wanna fuckin party this weekend!
Get drunk and make out and then pass out.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah.
Not. That sounded nothing like me.
Anyway, I need some advice from some people.
Actually, I know what they're all going to say, but I still want it.
Call me if you wanna do something this weekend.
401.6155

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Turns into a mechanical bull when the surf dies down!

May. 12th, 2004 | 04:36 pm
mood: blahblah
music: old school horror movie

What to say about today.
B-day for block scheduling makes me want to shoot myself.
In the face.
Again, and again, and again, and again.
1st period: Bio w/ Womack
5th period: Civ w/ LukanDICK (actually, Lukanich)
6th period: Geo w/ Beeker
7th period: Hea w/ Gardin
WECG auditions after school. Thought I sucked. Ah well.
Pizza Hut (cringes) with JV Girls after that.
Home now. Neglecting piano and all the other things I should be doing to keep the stress level down.
I don't give a damn anymore.
Did see Jeff today! Missed him!!!!!!!!!
Sarah S.- I wanna sulk with you. Truly, madly, deeply. K? K.
Saw 'A Chorus Line' last night.
Twas very good. Minor things, but then again, I didn't make it, so I can't really say anything, I suppose.
Eric Lang cracked me up. The whooooooole night. Told him so afterwards.
♥ his new haircut, as well.
I wanna get out this weekend.
Please?
Call me?
Plleeeeeaaassseeeeeeeeee?
Don't care who you are. You get bored, I already am bored.
Cell it (401.6155)

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Did you say your name was Ramblin' Rose?

May. 11th, 2004 | 12:15 pm
mood: confusedconfused
music: sean daniels talking.

It is so effin hot in this here library.
I am so confused.
Wow. 2 hours of acting next. Halleluyah!
Kate is being b@d@$$ and eating in the library.
U R T3H R3T4RD!
Oh man. Block schedule already blows, and I haven't even gotten through a full day of it.
So, today's schedule....
-School
-Trainer's to get ankle wrapped
-Soccer game (5:30 City Stadium. Support ME please.)
-Chorus Line
-Home
-Homework
-Bed
-Dreams
-Wake up
-more dreams
Oh god. I am looking forward to those dreams.
On a not so different note, I am really confused.
Now, it's become a 50% 50% game between the two.
What do I do? Oh, what do I do?
I need some advice.
Problem is, no one can give it to me.
;ASJDHRA;HTRA;ODFYA;TKBDS;LUCS;TJB;XHK <--pent up frustration.

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